This week's hand of crap is...

Wow this has been such a crazy week! I mean I can't even begin to start explaining to you how I've been up and then down and then just perfect. I almost feel as though this is wayyyyyyy too real man! The neurons in my brain just can't keep up with this crazy crap! But here I am. Alive, awake, ready to read a book, paint a masterpiece, write the script for my movie, do makeup on a friend and of course get some rum in my system ;D! **Rum is my new fav drink and red wine is second of course, I like to be fancy :)** Bahh side tracked!

So here it is...THE-BREAK UP

Soo we were walking along the yellow brick road and suddenly one of us realized our relationship wasn't in Kansas anymore. So yep he dumped me like a poop in the toilet :T but needless to say me being the girl I cried and was like "omg you're breaking up with me?!" and let me tell you I was so shocked! I never saw it coming ever. I mean I sensed sometimes that he just wasn't that into me anymore but I'm not ashamed to say I think I was totally in denial about it. But now I understand that the more you hold on to something the more you loose grip of it. So hold on loosely and never loose control - lyrics to an REO Speedwagon song btw! But it's true I mean I'm not gonna lie I did the worst thing a girl could do! I totally forced him to go out on a date with me once and it was terrible and I only ended up feeling worse afterwards. But I did however look really hot that day ;D...ahhh sidetracked! So yeah we broke up but you know what I was strong about it! And I knew it was really for the best and I remember taking that deep breath after walking back inside and actually feeling relieved.

I was done. I was through with being sad about my boyfriend not calling me or feeling lonely because I hadn't gotten a booty call in over a month(Oh the horror)! I mean don't get me wrong I cried like a baby the first two days but then suddenly I felt this confidence. I guess you could say I had a moment of self-realization. I came to terms with everything while lying in bed trying to sleep. It's like for the first time ever I understand myself and I understand why the relationship wasn't a relationship and why it's best this way. I even felt happy that it was over and yeah I still love him with everything in me but I am a strong woman and hell yeah I CAN FUCKING DEAL. so yeah I got this. And I'm gonna win my court case too that nigga ain't got nothin' on me! I'm Cha Cha and I'm the best god damn dancer in this town. Good night :]