It wasn't love but a moment

Do you know what it's like to love? Do you know what it's like to love someone more and more everyday? And live in this delusional world where you think they feel the same but they don't but you were merely a moment for them. Nothing but a moment. A moment that came and went and was never revisited. Then the person finally decides to tell you that you were a moment. You're there, you're frozen and stuck and humiliated as you feel your heart falling endlessly in your body. It sucks.

I feel like I just realized I was a moment for him. I wasn't anything great, and he was the world to me. I feel like I just reentered the door of pain I thought I had closed. I feel so hurt like my heart is swollen there's hot tears rolling down my face. And hot tears are the ones that have some real emotion, those are the ones that are really coming from inside of me. I'm fighting to be happy right now so bad but I think about how that past 6 months were a lie and how I have to be strangers with the one that was my best friend at one point. It really hurts and gosh all I can do to feel better is write in this blog. And all the things happening with my dad doesn't help, but hey at least the Mavs won? Idk I just feel so sad that things are going this way. I know I'll make it through it's not in me to give up and I'm not giving up but this is how I feel.